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Sunday, September 19, 2010

Last night...

Before-

So after one of the longest weeks of my life, i got the sad news that the other people going on the road trip were not able to go, only a day before we left and at no fault of there own, which meant I couldn't go. I just can't drive all that way alone ya know? Not all is lost, I'm waiting to see if i got my "name your price" tickets for next weekend. Either way, it'll be ok, I already have plans to go in February so no matter what I'm there, just under different circumstances.

Back to the point of this blog.

After this wild and winding week I realized I needed to stop living for everyone, and live for myself. So what do you think I did?

I went out dancing. Yea, went to a club/rave/lounge. No, not my normal thing. haha I met up with my Cleveland friends and we danced. We danced all night. How might you ask? I have no idea haha I was a sweaty mess, as everyone was but I was happy and free! I did dabble in drinks, which isn't something I normally do but when people offer them, you take them. lol And well, they kept ordering me the shots that taste like dessert! So good.

This morning I got home around 4am. Completely exhausted i fell into bed, with my clothes on, haha, and slept. I slept like a ROCK and it was wonderful. I needed this, I needed to see that it's ok to take time out for myself. I don't always have to do what someone else wants me to do.

One of my biggest habits is letting people live my life for me, every time I think I get away from the problem it comes back again, but that's b/c I'm the one choosing that path. My family and friends expect nothing from me except to be me. That's all they want. They have no idea how much they helped me realize I need to change. But now that I'm on that path again, it will change everything.

Nothing is ever lost. Everything simply changes form. Remember this in the face of Life’s ever-changing circumstances.

Things do happen for a reason. I'm in a better place and I'm thankful for that. I will not forget what I went through to get here but I will forgive.

I will do better and be better, not just for myself but for the ones I love, and yes for you.

After-

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Thoughts...

I'm not sure what's worse. The fact you think I would do something like that. Or the fact you are telling everyone I did.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Time Flies...

So i broke down and got netflix for my wii.... Bad decision... Lost... I'm SO lost in Lost.

In two days i'm on the last episode of season 1....

Ugh I shouldnt have started this!

I've been really busy the past few weeks with packing, friends staying and all my other endevours.

At some point this week i'll be posting some new sets and vids on both my sites.

I've started a side gig with photography and it's going better than I planned. I wanna share jsut a few of the raw images I've taken. I'm pretty happy with them. I'm building up a portfolio too! I already had a webmaster i think highly of, and who's site i'm a HUGE fan of tell me she would hire me if I lived over there. Made my whole month!

Right now i'm waiting for my Van to be worked on, talk about cutting it close. lol

Ah well, i can't wait for the adventure I'm about to have with some really great people.

4 days till I start my cross country trip. Can't wait!

I hope everyone is doing great!

xoxxxxx

Friday, September 3, 2010

Have No Fear! The Hungry Heroine is Here! New Section on My Site Coming Soon!

"Fighting crime one cupcake at a time..."

I just added a video to my site about a new project I've been working on with an animator friend of mine. There will be a new section added for my Comic Strip! During the day I'm just plain ol' Kellie Kay but when trouble arises the Hungry Heroine comes to save the day! Here's a sneak peek at her voluptuous body!

Wait until you see what gives her her super powers! Trust me it's tasty to say the least!

These comics will be added to my site weekly and I will be adding live video of these comics too!

Get ready for a new adventure!

Only @ www.ssbbwkelliekay.com

You should go see her...

I love Cara, and i love reading her blog... They way she writes.... it just does something to me...

Go check it out!

http://www.caracakesxoxo.com/

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Cross Country

Great news!

While i'm in Portland I'll be shooting with BBW Olivia and Gwendolan...

Soooo excited!